Story of my life

I miss having you as a friend. You’ve changed so much. Now I’m not so angry as I am sad. I wish I would’ve been able to just even text you and tell you about little things that not to long ago would have made both of us laugh. Things I only talked about with you. But I know you won’t care. You only seem to care when there’s exciting drama or Pokemon involved. When my situation went from good/interesting drama or sad/bad drama, you didn’t care. You only cared about the interesting part wanting to know every detail but the next day when I really needed a friend, you never responded. You didn’t give a fuck. You were probably too high to care. I needed a friend so badly. I thought I could turn to you. But I couldn’t. I struggled with it for over a week before I broke down and told everything to someone else. I waited a week for you to say something, anything and you didn’t. You didn’t care. I guess that’s part of why I’m mad at you. I needed a friend so badly. And now I know when I text you about how someone and I were talking about how attractive some guy that Susan was in love with, you probably won’t care about that either……..

It just feels sooooo good to hear about everyone’s fun weekend with your used to be best friend. And you had no clue any of it was happening. Sooooo much fun. NOT. fuck you holly. And not just for this weekend. But for every weekend this entire winter. I don’t wat to be around you any more because all I feel is left out. So stay the fuck out of my life. FUCK YOU

Today is just one of those god awful days that make me want to curl up in a little ball and cry. Now please excuse me as I proceed to do so.

I know I am mad at holly. There is no exact reason why. Currently i am blaming my anger on PMS, the full moon, and a lot of repressed anger. that all three combined is just a whirlwind of emotion. There are sooo many reasons why I am mad at her, but I don’t really want to tell any of you any of them. Sorry. I know your just trying to help but just let me be mad and my anger will wear its course soon. Please stop asking why I’m mad. All I’ll tell you is it’s a lot of things. That’s all ill say until I want to say more. I don’t want to force her to become my friend again. And she doesn’t seem to be that phased about me being angry with her, her life is pretty much the same it seems. So thank you, but please just stop asking. Yes I am mad. And I have no clue how to fix it but it WILL go away. Sooo for now….it’s just better if we don’t talk about her :)
Thanks